Monday, October 30, 2006
Cleaner whales and mating dinosaurs
I've been wanting to post since last wednesday but unfortunately, our pc just won't cooperate. Good thing napaayos na.Our sem finally ended tuesday night. Happy. But not so. Why? Because it's my last. Haha I still can't believe I'm graduating next sem. I have no idea where I'll be going after grad. But that's about 6 months away. Still, that's too soon.
I don't know if it's just because of too much Grey's Anatomy and House, but I'm starting to want to become a doctor again. I decided a few years ago that it wasn't what I really wanted. I am happy with my course. It's just I'm starting to imagine myself as a doctor. After 4 years of broadcomm, there's no way I'm going to be a doctor. It's just too much Grey's and House. Right?
Roro and I got a 1.25 for our thesis proposal. Yey!!! After the happiness wears wears off,we have to start worrying about the thesis itself. But in the meantime, I'm celebrating. Woohoo!
Cleaner whales and mating dinosaurs might not mean anything to us. Why would we waste our time talking about cleaner whales(which don't really exist) and mating dinosaurs (which also happen to not exist)? My little cousins, though, talk about them with so much passion. Children. I always find myself wishing I'm a kid, worrying about nothing except, perhaps, cleaner whales. But hey, I do't have o be a kid to be like a kid. I am 20 years old, but I am still a kid, and I do care about cleaner whales and mating dinosaurs.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Exam? What Exam?
I fell asleep when I should've been studying. On second thought, I should be sleeping. Sembreak na, technically. But since I chose to take up an Avecilla class this sem, I should've been prepared for an exam on a holiday after classes has long ended.I watched the whole first season of Grey's Anatomy the whole day instead of studying. It was way more fun to do after weeks of haggardness. I'll sutdy later. Ok. Tomorrow.
Basta before I sleep tonight, I'll make sure I arrange my readings by chapter. Promise.
I need to stop bumming around. For some reason, when I'm home in Lipa, I just can't study. I go home to relax, not to study. So there. I'll get back to reality when I'm back. In the meantime, I'm sleeping.
Friday, October 20, 2006
Bakla, Bakla, Paano Ka Ginawa?
Gumagawa kami ni Roro ng docu tungkol sa batang bading. Yung una naming gustong palabasin ay kung bakit ba mayroong mga batang nagpapakita na ng kabaklaan as early as 4 or 5 years old. Biological ba ito o dahil ba sa mga factors sa environment? Pero after ng shooting at masinsinang pag-iisip, iba ang naging perspective ng docu namin.Tanggap na nga ba ang mga bakla ngayon? Sa Pilipinas, di sila masyado discriminated compared sa ibang bansa na may hate groups pa. Mataas ang tolerance ng mga tao sa mga bading dito sa Pilipinas, pero that doesn't mean na fully accepted sila. Maganda yung point ng sociologist na nainterview namin. May cetain space lang daw na binibigay sa mga bakla. Parang accepted sila sa ilang professions pero pag sa mga trabaho na traditionally panlalaki,hindi talaga.
Ano ba ang tamang term para sa kanila? Bakla? Bading? Binabae? Parang walang tama e. Kahit ano ang gamitin namin, parang may sense ng pangungutya. Or baka masyado ako lang ang naglalagay ng meaning na 'yun?
Naisip ko lang, bakit ba importanteng malaman kung bakit may bakla o paano nagiging bakla ang isang tao? Para ba mapigilan ito? Sa bagay, for understanding din. Pero di ba mas magandang tignan at intindihin yung effect kaysa sa cause?
Mas open na nga ang society ngayon para sa mga bakla, pero up to a certain level lang. Naniniwala ako na may discrimination pa rin, hindi lang masyadong halata.
Bakit ganoon? Mas katanggap-tanggap pa ang mga babaeng gumagawa ng trabahong panlalaki kaysa sa mga baklang gumagawa ng trabahong panlalaki? Unfair talaga ang mundo.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Havana Nights
Mas masaya pala talaga mag-KTV pag kumanta ka. For the longest time, di ako usually kumakanta sa ganun unless may pumilit sa akin kasi wala akong talent sa pagkanta. Naisip ko lang na yun nga ang purpose ng KTV/videoke, para makakanta ang mga tulad ko hahaha.Special ang Havana KTV sa block namin. Maraming nagsisimula dito, at mayroon ding nagtatapos.
Inaantok na ako. Dapat lang, umaga na e. Bukas, docu mode na ulit. Panandaliang escape lang ang Havana sa looming concepts ng final docu at final exam.
More Today Than Yesterday
Warning: this is a very mushy post. hahahaI love you more today than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow.
I'll never forget that long conversation on the rooftop last Tuesday. I've never been more honest in my whole life.
There are a lot of things I hate about you. Your being too carefree to the point of being reckless. Your habit of being late (not as much as before though). Your not taking things seriously enough. Your slippers. Your different way of thinking. Your metaphors which are sometimes hard to understand. But for all the things I hate about you, I love you more.
unBROKE
nakakatawa. di pala ako broke after all. akala ko sa friday ko pa makukuha allowance ko, yun pala nung friday pa nakadeposit. hahaha.Tuesday, October 17, 2006
BROKE
Mayroon na akong New Sem resolution kahit hindi pa tapos ang sem na 'to: magtitipid na ako. Or at least I'll try to keep track of my expenses. Iv'e never been so broke. Sa Friday ko pa makukuha allowance ko eh i have, like, around 100 pesos left. Di ko tuloy makuha yung laundry ko sa shop. Kawawa naman ako. But come to think of it, it's partly my fault, di ko kasi nababantayan gastos ko. Pero partly lang, kasi magastos talaga 'tong sem na 'to. (haha may disclaimer pa).Being broke made me realize a lot of things--- one: I should be more careful in spending money, two: I should be more careful in spending money, three: I should be more careful in spending money, four: mahal talaga ako ni bam. hahaha... seriously, di ako dapat maawa sa sarili ko dahil wala akong pera. I will survive. At pag nakuha ko na ang allowance ko sa friday, i will celebrate!
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Ang tagal ko nang hindi umuuwi sa Lipa. Gusto ko nang umuwi! Uwi dapat ako sa wednesday pero parang hindi ata possible. bahala na.
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Mid-October na, 'di pa rin tapos requirements ko. I'm not complaining though. Sobrang bait ni Sir Deo for giving us another extension for our docu. Speaking of docu, wala pa kaming script. Matutulog na lang ako, baka mapanag-inipan ko pa.
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Wala na akong isusuot bukas at since di ko maclaim laundry ko, good luck! I will find a way and I promise you THAT!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
DEADlines
Oct. 9- deadline ng docu at thesis proposalOct. 13- deadline ng film 110 plates
Patapos na ang sem, pero di ko pa makita ang katapusan ng schoolwork. Kahit ano 'ata ang gawin ko, i'm doomed to cram. haggard. kelangan pa namin magpalit/alterr ng docu topic ni roro due to circumstances beyond our control. tapos yung thesis proposal namin, wala pa kaming nasisimulan sa revisions. tapos may topak pa yung slr cam ko na ginagamit ko sa film 110. paano ko matatapos ang 12 plates before oct. 13??? i'm sooooo DEAD...
Magpapagradpic na ako sa saturday. Kelangan ko na talaga tanggapin na malapit na akong grumaduate. After kong mag-observe sa taping ng Bituing Walang Ningning, parang ayaw ko na magtabaho sa TV network. Na-depress pa nga ako for a while dahil parang naging pointless lahat ng pinag-aralan ko. Pero feeling ko lang yun. Hindi man clear ang direction ko ngayon, I know I'm going somewhere.
Hinalungkat ko 'yung mga lumang souvenir programs ng mga recitals ko with Steps to look for ideas for my creative shot. May idea na ako ng gusto kong gawin. The problem is, kaya ko pa bang gawin 'yun? Ilang months na akong walang conditioning. Paano kaya ko makakapagsplit sa ere eh kahit ata sa floor 'di ko na kaya? di bale, i have one week to work on it. sana lang enough na yun.
Tinatanong ako ng nanay ko kanina kung ok na raw ba ako sa course ko. Nabring up kasi ng mommy ni roro nung wednesday 'yung reklamo ko dati na bakit si arjae pinayagan mag-music tapos ako hindi(gusto ko mag dance major nun). Kung wala ako sa broadcomm, wala akong konsepto ng Making "Love" , walang out-of-towns at Havana nights with blockmates, at 'di ko nameet si bambam(yihee ang korny). Narealize ko na kung naging mas mapilit lang ako (like arj), baka pinayagan din ako. Basta kasi sabihin sa akin nun na iba na lang, sige sunod na lang ako.
Naaalala ko na naman yung lahar experience namin 11 years ago. dahil sa pagcocomemmorate namin ng pamilya ko sa incident na 'yun, nakalimutan namin na birthday din nga pala ng tito ko ngayon. Anyway, naalala ko lang bigla na habang nag-aalala mga magulang ko noon sa bahay at mga gamit namin habang umaakyat ang tubig, namomoroblema ako sa pencil case ko na naiwan ko sa kwarto ko. Nakakatawa. 'Pag bata talaga, mas simple ang problema.
Floods
Yey! I finally have a blog, thanks to arjae. This is actually her gift for my birthday, which was about 2 months ago. hehe...Can't think of a word that would describe the past week. It's a wonder how so much work, fun,mistakes, lessons, accomplishments, laughs, and tears can be crammed in a week...
Monday...
I edited my 3-minute audio-visual autobiography for broadcast advertising class. It was fun watching myself dance as a kid. I miss dancing though. Haven't really danced for months now.
Tuesday...
I had fun watching my classmates' autobiographies. It's amazing how 30 people in a single class can come up with different ideas...
Wednesday...
Making "Love" launch. It felt so good to make the audience laugh or respond to the show. Check out our website at www.makinglovetv.tk.
Thursday...
Milenyo strikes Sunrise Hill. Woke up at 12 nn only to find our apartment wet with rainwater. Roro, Michi, and I had to move some of our stuff to the hallway because of the mini-flood. And we were on the 4th floor!!! Our planned rest and relaxation turned out to be an afternoon of trying to get all the water out of our apartment. We were totally helpless against the force of nature so we just decided to make the most out of our situation---it was the perfect time to give our floor a nice scrub. It was exhausting, but the experience left us laughing in the evening. The Sunrise Adventures...
Friday...
Still no electricity. And no water too. Plus, batt empty. haha, what else could happen?
... It's October 1, exactly 11 years since the storm Mameng struck us. I was 9 years old then, totally oblivious to the gravity of the situation. Arjae and I were making paper boats while everyone else were trying to save what they could. We were watching from our neighbor's window while our parents crossed the currents. We were sleeping soundly on the roof while the grown-ups stayed awake under the rain, trying to figure out how to escape. It was my lolo who saved us. He managed to swim to where we were using banana trunks as floaters. Using the trunks, my father and the other men made a balsa which saved everyone. It has been 11 years but the memory is still vivid. I don't see it as a tragedy, I never did. It was an experience. Not a lot of people have slept on the roof during a storm and survived without outside help.
so there... I have a lot to accomplish this week, but Milenyo froced me to take a much needed break. Which is not really a bad thing. Come to think of it, the Sunrise flood is actually fun to look back to.
keina. coffee addict. crammer. sleep deprived. haggard. happy. in love. busy. masipag. tamad. hyper. exhausted. iyakin. kulit. sayaw. pagod. sayaw ulit.
